A Decision to Choose Faith

Many years ago, at just 25 years old, I boarded a plane with 3 suitcases and a one-way ticket to Poland. It started a life of having to fully rely on God in a way that most people never realize. Things that you just always knew how to do back home are different and it requires learning new words, new thought processes, new traditions.

Fast forward 4 years and God led me to a different Polish city with a new team to start all over again where I didn't know a single person. The years I lived there were packed with so many examples of having to fully rely on God.  We lived by the mantra, "If God doesn't show up, we're toast".  We saw God do GREAT things over those years. When I moved back to the States there were about 35 people coming regularly to the church we'd started; and they continued to meet and grow after I'd left. 

I recently went back to Poland to visit and got to introduce my husband to the places and people that are dear to my heart. We walked into Gospel Church and I heard the sounds of worship resounding through the atrium of the shopping mall (where they currently meet). There were about 200 people there! It was a poignant reminder that God does not fail.  Despite our own weaknesses and shortcomings, the plans He makes Do Not Fail. 

This past week I was laid off. Most people are expressing sympathy and concern- and though those are nice sentiments, I actually feel a thrill of energy realizing I've been thrust back into an environment that is forcing me to fully rely on God again. This was not a surprise to Him and I know He's got a plan that's bigger than just 1 job. This past week I've been asking myself the question if I'll cling to human anxiety and try to quickly figure out a safe and familiar path for moving forward. Or will I take the step into the unknowns again, following where God is leading me- into a whole new area I've not done before? The only reason Not to follow Him into the unknown is FEAR.  But where does fear get anyone? Faith moves mountains, but fear just moves people backwards. I'm choosing faith. I'm choosing to trust the God of Jacob, of Abraham, the God who held back the waters of the sea for the Isrealites to escape their enemies, the God who sent a savior for the world in baby form, the God who always leads His people when they seek Him, the God who never fails and always has a plan.